Celebrating five years in remission during the #stayhome era

Five years ago today, I received news that my cancer was in remission. I remember making a promise to myself that I would celebrate big for the one-year and five-year anniversaries. In light of the COVID-19 pandemic, I am staying at home instead. Today is just another day of #stayhome. This morning I gave the refrigerator a deep cleaning. This afternoon, I have a two-hour meeting. And I am doing some laundry and writing as well. Nothing memorable.

Strangely, the COVID-19 had some similarities with the time I had cancer. I was asked not to travel because my immune system was weak during that time. I remember feeling so trapped at home. I was also living with an abusive partner at that time who made my life, including the recovery, much more difficult. This is why my heart breaks when I think of how the #stayhome impact people who are being abused at home.

When I was given the green light a few months after receiving remission news, I was so thrilled to travel again. Remarkably so, I have traveled a lot more since then. It is like I have a desire to experience as much as I can in this lifetime. I had several trips between March and July cancel because of COVID-19. Admittedly, I do feel trapped but somehow, I am finding some blessings in this experience. I remember back then, staying at home meant I was given the time to re-evaluate my life and finding enhanced enjoyment in my favorite hobbies. It was during that time that I knew I had to get out of that unhealthy relationship. Additionally, I did some introspective work that prompted me to make other changes in my life. Five years later, by staying at home during this pandemic, I am back to re-evaluating my life. Having this time is valuable and I have been "too busy" in the past few years to do this deep introspective work.  I woke up this morning with a realization that this time of self-exploration is a gift in itself. Indeed, it is a celebration of how far I have gone in the past five years and a way to look forward to new changes in the next five years.

Immunocomprised or not?

Well... it has been a while.  That happens.  I got so busy with living and working too much.  My cancer journey became an afterthought for me although there are some days I am reminded of it.  When I get those random reminders, I often process a blog post in my head but... never actually typed those words.  Then coronavirus (COVID-19) happened.  I am stuck in my own home not able to travel nor work out in the field.  This gave me a luxury of time to blog again for now....

There has been a lot of talk about how individuals who are immunocompromised are considered high-risk if exposed to COVID-19.  My sweet, dear husband has been really worried about me.  I insist that I am not immunocompromised.  I continued to accept assignments outside the home last week and this week.... I figured that those might be the last jobs I will see for weeks to come so I was willing to take them.  What does that mean for me?  Am I risking myself?  Am I risking others?  It is hard for me to figure out because there continue to be many unknowns.  Most of them were medical interpreting jobs.  I figured people still needed access.  I took a lot of precautions: washing hands, not touching my face, and using hand sanitizer every five minutes at medical facilities. 

My husband's comment "you ARE immunocompromised!" kept on ringing in my head.  I have been in remission for almost five years.  My health has been good since then except for developing asthma after moving to Minnesota.  This danged frigid weather!  This first winter was a pain.  The second winter, which we haven't been done with yet, has been much better.  I have not had any asthma attacks since the freezing temperatures in November.  I actually feel really great those days.

Back to the original question: am I immunocompromised?  I researched high and low but was unable to come across any clear answers.  One website said that survivors of cancer may be immunocompromised depending on how long it has been since their treatments along.  One medical website said that survivors who are not getting active treatments probably do not have the same level of risk of those receiving treatments.  I was going to ask my doctor this question last Thursday but...  she cancelled that appointment.  Too bad HealthPartners charge $45 for each email question so I will refrain from asking. 

Truth be told, I am still confused.  For now, I will just stay home as much as I can.  It does help that I actually like the husband.... and the three dogs that live in this house.